Monday, January 3, 2011

The Urge To Merge

The Urge to Merge

That's what I've known.

At first I stand tall, beautiful, brave.

And as love sneaks in, it brings it's bedfellow,

Fear.

And it is a trigger for my need.

For my addiction.

My need to belong.

And soon I start.

My urge to merge.

One day at a time.

One value

One opinion

One abuse

One after another after another.

I give up my life for theirs, out of fear,

of not belonging.

But who can I belong to if I'm gone?

Shadows have no substance.

So now I find myself again.

I believe the words I teach to the children so confidently.

"I have the right to..."

And I do.

And now I tell the wounded souls, "No thank-you". This woman is spoken for. She is with me, and I'm with her.

I am her. And I belong.





For more information on the addiction of codependency:

http://www.coda.org/index.php



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